O.K. Got it.
Your young and the world is your oyster (don't know where they got that saying from).
Time to enjoy the play of games and energy. From a strictly human aspect, these shallow experiences will fade one day. Keep in mind you are like a child with a new toy and one day you will get bored with it and seek a new toy.
But, one thing will always remain, that real you. My grandpa advice is keep up gentle pressure on finding that real you. Everything else will disappear one day.
Regarding your ''loves'', you have no idea what real love is. It's what you are. Until you know it you will only be running stories and hormones, with a few endorphins thrown in. You are love itself and it has nothing to do with what appears ''out there'' in your dream. Once you realize that you will love everything and everyone, and at the same time never lose sight of the fact that it's all a dream. You will be continually full of awe at the complexities, beauties and marvels of this dream, entertained beyond you wildest dream... and this a wild dream indeed.
My ''further'' advice, put good, decent and thoughtful people in your (love) life. How will you know that? Simple.... watch how they talk and act towards their previous loves, as you will one day be one of those.
Love ya, Jed.