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iammar

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Re: mariam
« Reply #315 on: March 26, 2018, 09:19:45 pm »
an update, for whatever an however it is worth to...

i had to sever everything, granted the exception of my children. every relationship, every role, has been completely decimated, and those i felt worth the effort have had to be consciously resurrected. the cost of nothing is everything. or is it the cost of everything is nothing?

i spent years thinking i could dupe inevitability, as if my cunning could outsmart what is. what is to unfold will unfold. it's more comfortable armed with the trust that others will be exactly what they are, as well as the knowing that i have no f*cking clue what i am- that way i am not limited by my ignorance, but rather, i remain open to the unveiling of what it is i actually am.

i've spent too much time here (my judgement speaking) and my **** is plastered all over the walls. if i could tag one sentiment on every wall it would be this: " who are you? and what does that mean for your everyday experience? don't write me answer. live it, for the sake of all you have created in your infinite creative genios".


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Re: mariam
« Reply #316 on: March 27, 2018, 02:45:42 am »
Excellent my friend....

iammar

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« Reply #317 on: July 15, 2018, 09:48:12 pm »
others will be just what they are
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Re: mariam
« Reply #318 on: July 15, 2018, 11:37:00 pm »
thank you
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« Reply #319 on: July 16, 2018, 02:54:04 am »
Got it, now further.

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iammar

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« Reply #320 on: August 17, 2018, 11:45:09 pm »
i read the master game once upon a time. most of what it said has been forgotten, but i remember the five rooms. in last night's dream i fell from a plane. for the first time i can recall, falling like that didn't bump me into the daytime dream. there was only a feeling of being braced for impact, then there was ground.

it all means nothing, of course, but felt like chatting for entertainment's sake  ::)


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« Reply #321 on: August 18, 2018, 12:55:31 am »
Thanks for that, now share something that matter, really matters.

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iammar

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« Reply #322 on: June 07, 2019, 09:56:52 pm »
's hopeless jed.
nothing matters.
yet here it is,
be i ng,
not this or that, or that either...

 ::)

oh, hang on! something to be! : grateful for the happy-whatever-eye-roll-icon. not every ai platform has that these days you know.

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« Reply #323 on: June 07, 2019, 09:59:31 pm »
...been silent so long, it appears i now need approval to post. that makes me laugh  :D

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« Reply #324 on: June 08, 2019, 01:11:36 am »
Seeking approval... you got mine, but never forget that it's totally meaningless.

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iammar

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« Reply #325 on: June 08, 2019, 08:18:37 am »
guess i walked into that one, though i found your reply just repulsive enough to snap things back into proper perspective. thanks.

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« Reply #326 on: June 09, 2019, 12:08:25 am »
I am always seeking to deliver that little wake up punch.

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iammar

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« Reply #327 on: June 17, 2019, 10:20:30 pm »
i’m surprised to read you’re always seeking anything  :o
and smug to think i’m in on the joke of communicating
and obviously clueless  ::)
and enamored with that damn rolling eyes emoji!!


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« Reply #328 on: June 18, 2019, 03:33:34 am »
Completion of seeking T/R has led me to seek fun and infinite games. 'Done' should read 'begun'. Infinity is pretty big and includes many undreamed of realms in which to play.  Key word, 'play'. Never take anything or anyone seriously.

"In my Fathers house are many rooms''.

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« Reply #329 on: July 22, 2019, 11:27:16 pm »
some "thing" else that keeps coming up- if whatever this is i am is always evolving, it seems inevitable i continue to outgrow everything: people, teachings, teachers, groups, relationships, circumstances, on and on.

it seemed tragic at first. sometimes still, when i find myself particularly attached to something, it hurts a bit to bust through its confines, but it's inevitable, and there's always something, some horizon, to grow into, then out of, some room waiting for the walls to fall.