Hi there:
Welcome to the forum. I get that you are confused and anyone trying to think their way through this will definitely be confused. You mind can only take you so far and then you have to go it ''alone''. If I try to explain those terms you will only be getting more stories. I suggest you just contemplate those terms and see how well you can embrace both at the same time. It's illogical and paradoxical, but I didn't set up this game. It's very simple, but not very easy.
Love ya, Jed.