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DasJinna

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Waiting for the collapse
« on: April 28, 2018, 03:33:01 pm »
Hi Jed,

thanks for encouraging people to Text you in this forum!
I've been revealing un-truths for a while now, detecting all the BS in my life. Detecting all Un-truths my Ego is made of and recognizing the Egos of the others. Un-truths in my Environment were blocking me to go further so I left my Partner and the project we were working in and all the storys about the future I had. I am on my own now, alone as one can be - plenty of time and courage to put this journey to its end!
I have been exploring the un-truths in my perceptions for quite a while too and it is clear to me that all is consciousness and consciousness is all there is but i can't "see" it. The other Day there was this realization floating into my head but i had a feeling that this experience wasn't complete/comprehensive. It was like sth was still blocking it. The next day it was nearly gone but i can still sense it.
All the concepts Fall apart these days, i laugh and shake my head in disbelief all the time. How could one not recognize this at all, everything is so... obvious!?? I mean... What Kind of thing did they make out of shoes? :D i love to think about that one... Anyway..
I write every Day, i always did. I wait for the total collapse, i want this foggy curtain to go away... Give me a kick please... Dankeschön!

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Re: Waiting for the collapse
« Reply #1 on: April 29, 2018, 06:19:07 am »
Something happened today. There is just this puppet walking around doing some stuff. I'm not involved in the doing. I'm not even an observer of it. It all just happens. No decisions made... No effort... Jed, Is this it?

Jed McKenna

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Re: Waiting for the collapse
« Reply #2 on: April 29, 2018, 07:18:02 am »
It's a very good start.. now further.

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: Waiting for the collapse
« Reply #3 on: April 29, 2018, 05:18:39 pm »
So I swapped back to nearly normal perception later yesterday, even though once and for all I noticed I am not "doing" anything and so I don't have to try, thats a relief.
Not the first time sth like this happened but it was never as longlasting as this time, until now it came up only for milliseconds or so. Did you have those moments or phases swapping to other states of perception and going back to normal before you became truth realized?

Ok, so when I approach the outer world - the stuff around me - I see it is just colours and forms and other sensations such as sounds and so on. With this in mind all things seem to be... Like shells. Thin layers and underneath there is nothing. I can sense a big and endless nothingness under this thin layers. But this emptiness is more like a blurred memory. I am not able to capture it completly. It seems like its slipping away like a fish when I try to catch it and hold it. And simoultaniously I ask myself if I'm going mad and if I talk BS an just project sth.
But when I looked at the ocean the other day, there was a sense that underneath the surface of reflections on the water there was not the deep sea and then ground and then Planet but only nothing and nothingness. There was nothing behind the things I could perceive directly. Like a painting, like Trumans horizon. Is that true? I know it's a dumb question and I feel like a fool asking this. I feel like a dumbass anyway because I have no idea if all of this is "real" or my imagination. No idea where I am and what is true.


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Re: Waiting for the collapse
« Reply #4 on: April 30, 2018, 01:36:22 am »
Yes, in the process, there is a coming and a going. But when the real thing hits, you realize that anything that comes and goes is not real... just transient.

I suggest you start with the basic assumption that nothing is real... other than in your mind, imagination and memories. Take everything from that perspective and see where you end up.

Love ya, Jed.


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Re: Waiting for the collapse
« Reply #5 on: April 30, 2018, 05:26:20 pm »
Jep! Thats a good one! Will tell you how it goes! Many thanks

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Re: Waiting for the collapse
« Reply #6 on: May 01, 2018, 03:05:40 am »
 ;) ;) ;) ;)

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Re: Waiting for the collapse
« Reply #7 on: May 01, 2018, 06:12:00 am »
Jed, I cannot do this. When everything that appears is false, there is nothing to look at for seeing the truth. What is left - yeah sure I know what -  it is the seeing only, but my mind does not want to take this step back... I mean you cannot perceive nothingness, how do you know it is there?

And loosing the "I" is not the thing here, it is only a side effect, isn't it? So people could loose the "I" and not necessarily be truth-realized, right?

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Re: Waiting for the collapse
« Reply #8 on: May 01, 2018, 06:49:55 am »
Maybe... why not try it for yourself and see... it doesn't matter what some teacher tells you, it's your experience that counts.

Love ya, Jed.