Hey Jed, been more peace here in the past few days. Just seeing color and marveling at the beauty in a very ordinary way.
A good bit of addiction seems to have fallen away - the compulsive thoughts come and go quickly, like empty husks, lacking some of the oomph they'd had. Weed, food, laptop - all have less draw. The biggest one now seems to be sleep - no rush in getting free of it, just gently watching.
Thank you for helping me see that truth wasn't what I wanted, just basic happiness. So much more peaceful to not be fooling myself about that.
Love ya back.