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Jed McKenna

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« Reply #45 on: May 16, 2018, 12:14:54 am »
Excellent observation....

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« Reply #46 on: August 01, 2018, 11:38:22 am »
HA vs Abiding nondual awareness


I’ve been thinking about and gearing my actions towards finding truth, which is a front for guilt and self-abuse. I really want happiness, and right now that means all the human stuff. Making choices and being active in the world I’m so afraid of that I try to retreat from it.

Sing and dance, sing and dance =)

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« Reply #47 on: August 02, 2018, 02:35:48 am »
... it doesn't matter what you do...

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« Reply #48 on: August 02, 2018, 01:33:03 pm »
So growth doesn’t matter? Or singing/dancing/expressing etc. don’t matter for growth?

I’m concerned you’re not meeting me where I’m at.



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« Reply #49 on: August 03, 2018, 01:30:27 am »
All of what you speak is in the dream... it's all illusion. These things can be fun and entertaining... but making something matter is attaching importances. Nothing wrong with that as long as you are aware what you are doing. What matters today may not matter tomorrow. Just be as aware of what is actually going on... not what you ''think'' is going on. Awareness is the ultimate solvent... hard to have too much of it.

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« Reply #50 on: September 03, 2018, 12:22:44 am »
everything is what i think is going on. there's nothing happening here that isn't my own **** context.

i always think im being watched. people fill the role, then if there's nobody around, the threat of being caught. or something akin to karma. IM BEING WATCHED.

im paranoid.

im not living for me. i dont want to live this life. i dont give a **** about most of the things i do. they're out of obligation, nothing like love. am i really doing anybody a favor?

so many people i talk to at work, or rather, PRETEND to listen to. I DONT GIVE A **** WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. I DONT GIVE A FLYING ****. SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT THE **** UP1!!!

IDONT CARE.

im such a faker. i dont give a ****. i wonder if i really care about anyone - parents, girlfriend... i love you... is it **** blah blah? lip servce? WHAT AM I TRYING TO GET OUT OF THEM? and is it SOLELY  a lie? or is there any truth in those i love you's?

 iseee no immediate future but to keep faking. maybe tell somebody i dont really give a **** about what they're saying in polite terms. but not much beyond that right now. im a coward and i supposedly fit right in, but i dont see it that way. i feel like the ULTIMATE coward. "i'm not okay, you're okay."

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« Reply #51 on: September 03, 2018, 03:34:43 am »
Got it... you think you are very different from most folks... give you head a shake...and watch out, I have my eyes on you, mostly the left one.

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« Reply #52 on: September 18, 2018, 03:07:15 pm »
Did you write the books?

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« Reply #53 on: September 19, 2018, 02:43:34 am »
Of course not, I have never written anything in my life, writing might have arisen from time to time, but there is no me here to write anything. In addition, you have never written anything ever as well. The you who you think you are is just a story and an argument for limitations, plenty of limitations. This is the point of this venture, (if there needs to be a point) to get you out of what might be called ''mini-me'' and into the realization of your True Nature.

I lay no claim to anything because there is no me. That was realized many years ago. It's exactly the same for you at the level of Truth. All that you claim to think, be and do is for naught because it hinges on a possessor character usually labelled as ''I, me, my or mine''.

Look and see if you have actually every done anything in the dream. To every response you appear to you, ask ''is that true''. Never give up and you will find you are nothing and everything at the same time. Stop wasting illusory time thinking you are real, that you occupy space, that you are a somebody and have a location. You are none of these rather silly things. Every time you claim responsibility for something you lie.

Nothing has ever happened and everything has already happened, there is no me and there is no you. There is only ONE, and I call it Truth, but what's in a name?

If you profess to seek the realization of your True Nature, the stop beating around the bush and do it. I have not answers for you, but from time to time pointing may arise. All answers are in you.

Love ya, Jed.