The search seems to have stopped. It’s all seen as arising in THAT and so it’s seen that no emotion/thought/action has more value/
meaning than the other. I wouldn’t even say that it is meaningless or valueless - it just arises. It’s like some sort of acceptance/surrender of what is arising where nobody really accepts/surrenders.
I have just started reading your 3rd book (from the 1st trilogy) which I’ve had for years but didn’t feel like reading and then all of a sudden I felt drawn to it. And the timing felt just perfect (obviously). I remember that this conscious desire to learn the arising patterns came about a year ago. There was no reason behind it, I was just super curious. By now, some patterns are seen very clearly and some not. It’s a fun game that I don’t even have to do anything in particular to play - it just happens and then I go “oh, I see!”.
Over the last few years, my life became simpler and a lot less busy. The sense I had while it was happening is that a space was being cleared out for something I’m not aware of as yet. At the moment, I feel like I’m in this wide ocean of possibilities and I’m waiting to see which possibility/possibilities will coagulate for me. Fun times.
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