INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

The search seems to have stopped. It’s all seen as arising in THAT and so it’s seen that no emotion/thought/action has more value/
meaning than the other. I wouldn’t even say that it is meaningless or valueless - it just arises. It’s like some sort of acceptance/surrender of what is arising where nobody really accepts/surrenders.

I have just started reading your 3rd book (from the 1st trilogy) which I’ve had for years but didn’t feel like reading and then all of a sudden I felt drawn to it. And the timing felt just perfect (obviously). I remember that this conscious desire to learn the arising patterns came about  a year ago. There was no reason behind it, I was just super curious. By now, some patterns are seen very clearly and some not. It’s a fun game that I don’t even have to do anything in particular to play - it just happens and then I go “oh, I see!”.

Over the last few years,  my life became simpler and a lot less busy. The sense I had while it was happening is that a space was being cleared out for something I’m not aware of as yet. At the moment, I feel like I’m in this wide ocean of possibilities and I’m waiting to see which possibility/possibilities will coagulate for me. Fun times.

Further..

I have said it in many ways before.... glad to hear you express it your way...

It’s not at all as “I” thought it would be.

Love ya, Jed.

And thank you for having the courage and taking the effort to find out what is real for you. It take courage but as you are finding out, it's well worth it.

Write me anytime.

Love ya, Jed.

Thank yourself, you created me for said purpose.

Love ya, Jed.

To my surprise the integration of the T/R is currently happening on the body level. I thought that when I’ll see the Truth I will disembody rather than embody. What I mean by “embody” is that the body is moving towards more and more relaxation and effortlessness but in order to do that all the habitual tension and kinks must be felt. It’s like being aware of the kinks has the body adjust and move towards no-kink so to speak. “I” am not doing it. Sometimes there’s even a bit of anxiety as the body seems to be moving on its own without listening to the thoughts about the body. But it’s very quickly seen through and the anxiety dissolves. It’s very weird to operate without a belief that I am controlling the body in any way. What I see is that the body does its thing and the mind creates its own interpretation of what’s happening and calls it “I am my body doing x, y, z story”. The experience is that of a headless existence where there’s awareness of whatever is here without the belief in the mind's commentary. When it’s full on and mind is not there, it’s impossible to describe in words. And then mind pops back in and says “oh it felt like nothing is happening, how weird”. Fun times..

Time for a wrap party then:-)

Thank you, Jed.

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 Partayyyyy