So I gave my mind the task to look for what isn't. And it tried, it really did! lol And then it got super super frustrated! And then I saw it very clearly that NOTHING that can be perceived, however subtle, can be the Truth. Physically I experienced it as a relaxation and spaciousness - that's how I often experience a falling away of/seeing through beliefs. I have a sense that it is my "waiting" for an experience of the Truth that fell away or, at least, lost some of its stickiness.
I also I saw that mind is part of the phenomenal world and EVERYTHING that can be perceived or experienced is part of the same phenomenal world too and has nothing to do with the Truth. This insight brought a relief and also a sense that I can enjoy this world/dream! And also an awe that it exists at all!
I also realised that I was somehow resentful at the world/dream because it couldn't/wouldn't show me the Truth - this resentment seems to have also fallen away (at least for now) giving way to an influx of energy that felt like gratitude and excitement. I had this thought, that it is like asking a dog to meow and getting resentful that it doesn't:-) A dream is a dream and the Truth is the Truth and the latter ain't in the former.
I still don't know what the Truth is but what I seem to have realised deeply today that it is not in anything that can be perceived and that's a relief. Further..
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