INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

When I focus on your question, Jed, what comes is that, at this point, there is no choice really. On the NO-THING level any idea of movement/choice of  any movement is just that, an idea that is utterly meaningless. On the phenomenal level, it appears that a process is happening and it is happening spontaneously i.e. the character does not have a choice and is just going through motions. The best way I can describe this process is a deconstruction of identification with the character. What has been seen yesterday is that the mental and emotional construct of who I believed I was (i.e. a separate individual) has been in this process of deconstruction for a while. The most sticky point, for me, was the belief that I am the body - no matter how much I tried I could not see past that one. Yesterday, it has been seen that there was a belief that in order to exist there must be identification of some sort but turns out that THAT which is, just is and no object is needed for it to be (this is the best I can describe this at this point). That is when the body was seen as another object rather than the subject. So this morning, as part of this ongoing process, what has been seen that the belief/idea "I think" is completely superfluous because thinking just arises from that nothingness/void/emptiness and there is no thinker and has never been.

So at this point the answer to your question is that the sense is that "I" can go until the deconstruction is complete and after that I truly do not know the answer (at least not yet).

Thank you for your question, Jed - it had me see more clearly the process that has been in motion. Further...