Author Topic: Newbie  (Read 2487 times)

AZS

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Re: Newbie
« Reply #15 on: February 05, 2018, 07:41:02 am »
So, the body/mind seems to have come to some sort of a balance. Shortly after I saw that I was NO-THING, the searching stopped and I have been experiencing some sort of euphoria/bliss (I heard someone calling it "being drunk on emptiness", which definitely describes my experience). I have a sense it is because the energy used by the seeking pattern was released/freed. I did a conscious connected breathing workshop yesterday and a lot of energy moved and as a result I felt kind of more "landed" - like a new state of homeostasis got established in the body/mind following the freeing of the seeking energy.

At the moment, identification with various stories about the character and her place in the world is in the process of falling off spontaneously and without much drama - it's like the seeing that the mind is lies ALL THE TIME allows for those stories not to be believed when they arise. But identification with the body is still running when not consciously investigated. When consciously investigated, it is seen that who I am cannot be a body. In those moments it is seen that the label "body" refers to a  bunch of sensations, a mental image of this particular body and a thought "I am inside this", a visual of an image of headless torso when eyes are open and a point of reference that is believed to be just behind the eyes. I think the life-long belief that the point of reference is "me" is the stickiest one out of all the various layers that maintain the belief that I am inside the body. So something to investigate when I have time today. Further...