Author Topic: Newbie  (Read 2491 times)

AZS

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Re: Newbie
« Reply #30 on: February 27, 2018, 04:54:21 am »
Today I had a fight with my boyfriend and I could see how the ego/belief in a separate self was taking centre stage -  body chemistry firing up and the mind using what’s happening in the body to create a story of “I am right and you are oh so wrong!”. I tried a few tools to cut the story’s momentum short which did work to stop it “growing” but the resentment, self-righteousness and hurt were still there and wouldn’t budge.   Then I got busy with work and then, boom, the story was gone/a shift in perception occurred while “I” wasn’t looking. This had me see that “I” cannot make a story go away – the story goes/perception shifts when it does. I guess the only thing I still experience like it is within “my” control is to be able to ignore the pull of the story by not feeding any thoughts that arise (either negative (“he is a b*stard) or positive (“he is a good person”)) which leads to some sort of blankness where no story exists and that stops the story from gaining more momentum than it already has. Further…