Ok Jed,
I'm going to decide to allow the belief "everything that is happening around me and in me is able to support my journey." I know this is false (as is all beliefs) but I can dupe remnants of "me" into more relaxed states so these remnants 'appear' to be more "manageable." I can function, as needed, as a split personality conniving ways to manipulate my counterparts. Thus I am using one ego layer to eliminate another. Once I choose a belief I can find so much evidence to support it. Remarkable. Yet I'm sitting here almost laughing at myself knowing it's all just a big game, while yet well aware that there is no journey and there is no game.
Conscious intent vs destiny -you say we can have intentions to become a no-self yet I just cant imagine the Truth of 'me' intending anything except to dream for the fun of it.
Last_ember but just a flicker