Hi,
I want to ask about synchronicity. But discouraging and repelling kind of synchronicity. In recent years, I've tried many times to make decisions about the direction of my life which was very hard because somehow I've lost my sense of direction. But whenever I said let's just take this direction, something strange happened that discouraged me.something made me think I can't go that way or I shouldn't or it's too late or it is too much for my capacity. Which makes me pinned to where I am. I've been waiting here for a long time. I feel stagnating here! Having no interactions with life I'm also getting dumb! Getting weaker and coward. like the ones that say beat me to death but don't ask me to do anything about it. As if I am a master failer. I don't even cry anymore. It's kind of powerfully accepting my disability and stupidity! I have had many dreams that came true but they are either insignificant or about my failures and bad things only! Maybe because I've been falling nonstop recently! You see I'm not afraid of falling anymore, but I am bored! What do you think the problem is?