Simple, but not easy. I don't know if we have discussed this one, but have you done Kiloby's vids on Unfindable Objects? Find your sickness and the you that is ill. I highly recommend them.
Conserve your energy by not talking about yourself any more. No one really wants to hear about you. They all just pretend. Believe me, I know what I am talking about. No! don't believe me, believe yourself. That's the source.
Dialogue:
Hi, how are you?
Well, not too bad, my backs been kicking up a little but the twitch in my left hand is going away. I think the acupuncture is helping. Got a great acupuncturist, used to be the royal accu-guy for the King of Thailand, but now that the king is dying he had to leave the country, met him in a book store in Syracuse. He noticed a little growth on my right ear, it's dark and irregular, said it might be cancer. Jeez, I don't know what to do. Other than that, I'm not doing too bad. Wife left me last week, said the drinking and smoking dope was getting to her. Good thing she didn't find out about 'you know who' or I would have lost an important body part. The guy from Thailand said wives feed them to the ducks. I watched a documentary on that, a doctor has done three thousand re-attachments in the past eight years. Duck chewed ones are the toughest and the blendered ones are impossible. Yup.. sure glad she didn't find out about 'you know who'. As a precaution, I threw out the Blendomatic we had. But, that's enough about me. Tell me... do you think I am looking a little pale, you know.. peekid.. these days? I think I'm losing weight, might to due the Chinese diet pills I got on the internet. Make my jaws clench a lot. Now, what do you suppose that is. Ah, probably just a little tension. That's all it is, just tension. I'll just have a little smoke and feel fine.
Just to be clear and for emphasis, no one gives a tinker's damn about you, period. Getting that is one of the biggest reliefs l could offer you. The freedom that comes from this kind of honesty is amazing. Of course, the corollary also applies, with the exception of West Africa. There they really do give a damn about you but it's not quite the same... they only give a damn about whether or not you have symptoms.
Not giving a damn, or hootlessness as L.L. used to call it doesn't mean you are a bastard and ill-willed, it means there is little or no 'you' in everything you do. Things don't go better with Coke, things go better without 'you' in them. The more 'you' the more screwed up things get (a generalization, but look around 'you' and see for yourself).
That's a very condensed version of a huge topic. Just try it on for size. Also, it's important that I have offended you here, I make no bones about it. The only thing that can be offended is something that requires defending and this is all about de fence (please say with French accent) that you built. I want for you to break that fence down into recycled toothpicks. Then compress the toothpicks into press-to-logs and send them to Nepal where they have burned all their trees down (Don't think they had many to begin with so it's not their fault).
Love ya, Jed.