So basically you're pointing to the thing that whatever seems to exist, doesn't.
I can repeat the sentence: everything that seems to exist, is an illusion. Still I dont have it by heart.
The sensory experience exists somehow, somewhere, because there is awareness that perceives this all.
Lately I've started to become more and more aware of the stories chosen about me and "my relationships" etc. - the Shakespeare. Obviously not true, relatively easy to see them changing and to change them.
Now I'm facing the ocean, the rocks, the moon, the stars, the space, this human body. This you can't get rid of so easily. Where is it? How could we perceive it if it didn't exist?
Its leading to confusion. What is there to get? You do "the work" and it all vanishes? Where to? And what is left is the truth? The grande field of awareness? And beyond that, is there something? ("Go figure")
Being executive with the language: how to define what means to exist, how do you define it?