Hi Jed,
I wanted to post today, although these past few days have been quite uneventful.
Nothing new is coming up. Some of the old stuff is, but it al passes without leaving so much as a wrinkle really.
The tendency to search, compare, get it, surfaces from time to time, but never for long. I don't invest in it. I don't ignore it either.
Thinking has reduced. There are more moments now when there is just an alive , energetic stillness and space. I won't say this is who or what I am, or that I am nothingness. It feels phoney and unnecessary to do so. But it does feel completely at home. And so does everything appearing in this stillness. Guess you could call this oneness, but you know, why would I. It feels like stretching for something.
Falling, you could say, has become more of a gliding or hovering (just a metaphor not an experience).
There will be turbulent times. I have no doubt about that. Even now there a lots of times when stillness is not felt, when there is doubt, anger, impatience, etc.
But this is not a problem. It is all appearing and in no way worse or different than when nothing much is appearing.
I still don't know if I'm done. Guess this desire to be done means I'm not..on the other hand it could also be some lingering remnant of a habit. Something that has to die out by itself. Any thoughts on this?
Love Marcel