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marcusfable

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Re: Riding the ox
« Reply #210 on: February 14, 2017, 03:20:52 pm »
Hi Jed

Like a phoenix rising from its ashes, self reappears from time to time and then dissapears again. I guess when some final doubt or conditioned pattern has left the system forgood, it will not reappear again.

As I have mentioned in my previous post, the tables have turned. There's no longer an I experiencing being/freedom/selflessness now and then. There is being experiencing a sense of self from time to time.

So there is no more rider and no more ox to ride. Just the constant flow, the eb and tide of experience.

Nothing has changed, everything is as it is. It has always been this way. It will always remain this way. No birth, no death. Just this. That's all.

Marcel

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Re: Riding the ox
« Reply #211 on: February 15, 2017, 11:27:34 pm »
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« Reply #212 on: June 07, 2017, 05:31:59 pm »
Hey Jed,

I've been incubating,or maybe hibernating...who is to say.
Actually I'm still doing it.
Anyway, just wanted to say hi.

Marcel

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« Reply #213 on: June 10, 2017, 12:49:13 am »
Back at ya, now what did you really want to say?

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #214 on: June 15, 2017, 05:33:19 pm »
Hi Jed,

You did some nice restructuring on the forum I see. Very good.
Now about your question.
I guess I wanted to say hi to remind myself that there is unfinished business. I do get the sense that I'm not done.
Seeking has stopped a while ago. I'm pretty much just living my life now. It does not look or seem to be the life of one who is awake. But that is how it is and I do not find a real impetus to change anything about it.
I guess that is what I call hibernating.
Me saying hi is a reminder to maybe look at some stuff again. It is like a gentle invitation.
That being said, I reckon that without the drive of seeking, looking at stuff will not be easy. I don't even have a clear idea of where to begin.

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Marcel






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« Reply #215 on: June 16, 2017, 06:00:41 am »
Too late, you already began before the thought to begin arose... ask any neuro-scientist  :P :P :P :P like me... yea, like me. ??? ??? ??? ???.

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« Reply #216 on: June 18, 2017, 04:46:10 am »
Yep, read about that one too. Thoughts not steering action, but rather providing a narrative.
It makes perfect sense if you think ;) about it.
Didn't know you were a neuroscientist by the way. But that too makes perfect t sense.

Anyway. I know the wheels are already set in motion. And just have to follow the thing wherever it goes. It's fine by me. I feel no resistance to it, other than that I would like to see where I'm going...still riding the ox I guess...

Love Marcel

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« Reply #217 on: June 20, 2017, 06:58:30 pm »
Hi Jed,

It is not difficult to speak truthfully when there is no want. Truth is what is left when trying has ceased.
There is a slight daze, a little disorientation. It is not uncomfortable. More resting than falling.
There is not much to say or do.
Every word is too much.
I feel unmotivated to lie, prove or achieve.
But it is all I can do here.
How many paradoxes do you want?
Every time we speak I lie.
I can only be done when I'm no longer here.
So as much as I like you, and for someone I don't know I like you a lot, I gotta leave.
But I don't want to leave.
That is the true reason I keep coming back.

Love Marcel


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Re: Riding the ox
« Reply #218 on: June 20, 2017, 09:59:23 pm »
Consider your ass kicked out of the nest.

Off with you now.

Love ya, Jed.