Hi Jed,
Not mich has changed since my last post. I observe I'm basically doing, feeling and thinking the same things as before. There is one difference. Most of it doesn't bother me anymore. And the things that do bother me, I don't get all cramped up about (I'm not thinking that this or that shouldn't bother me anymore).
There's 'nice things' like a sense of space and non-judgment, not being taken in by the drama so much.
There's also physical unpleasantness like: pressure on my chest, and heart palpitations.
The latter are probably due to stress (there has been an unexpected death in the family two days ago which, for various reasons, involves a lot of stress). It could also be a by-product of what I've realized (you know releasing large amounts of emotional energy, or the body adjusting to processing more energy). It could also be both, or perhaps even neither, who knows.
I also realize that realizing truth has not made me immune to trying to find explanations for things. This post is a clear example of that. But, as I said. It doesn't bother me. I take it as it comes.
That's it for now. i'm going to sleep. It is actually 1:55 a.m. in the Netherlands right now, and it's going to be another full day tomorrow.
Love,
Marcel
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