Hello Jed,
I wanted to post today without really knowing what to say. Guess I'm gonna find out.
In the past few days there have been some questions buzzing in my head. Questions I know I wont be able to answer, but nonetheless they are there. They come up, then fall away again. Probably they are some attempt of ego to reinvest my energy in pursuing the dream state again, but I'm not sure, and I'm not invested in finding out either. I just see them come and go. Not knowing increasingly becoming the place I venture from, not to.
The questions that has come up the most is the following one: what will happen after this body-mind, this venture point, has come to an end? Will consciousness continue (I do not mean consciousness of self, but consciousness in general) or not? Will seeing continue from all the other venture points, and will this venture point just stop, or will, something completely different happen? Offcourse, as I said, no answer can be expected to these questions. I sense consciousness will not mind either way, but it could just be my mind projecting expectations rather than experience answering.
I'm pretty sure ego is just trying to get a handle on things again. It is ok. i relax into it and let it happen (this is not a choice it is just the way it goes).
Then on a somewhat different note I have been playing with imagined scenarios in which people would aks me questions about truth or what I have realized. In all cases I found that I was not able to say anything about it. I would have to say that I don't know, or that nothing has been realized (I mean this quite literally). How about that huh?
I'm very curious how things will continue to unfold and me posting here is just a way to express what has been going on, rather than an attempt to get some answers or something. Offcourse I like the idea of you reading how things have been unfolding for me, and maybe giving some feedback when you feel I need it.
That's it for now.
Love,
Marcel
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