During my younger teenage years I started questioning everything that was shoved down my throat. Then i got rid of them: religion,politics, morality, love, social roles etc. I thought I was done and I had removed all the baggage so i took a 2 year "break". I didnt want to post anything about my background because I pity myself for taking that break when i could've achieved so much during that period. Anyway, I thought it may be useful so whatever. Now that im looking deeper, I see a lot of fear, guilt, regret, anger, jealousy, insecurity etc. I still have demons to purge.
Why do I have these feelings? Is it the feelings or the attachment to the idea that I shouldnt have these feelings? While i'm practising to be aware whenever they come up, that doesnt stop them from coming up later again. Is it because i still believe in an "I" that experiences these feelings? Should i keep on being mindful of these feelings and try to root them down? hm