Dear SS:
Thank you for your post and welcome to the forum. Yes, what you say has some truth/reality to it. One thing I know for sure is that whatever you do, it will be absolutely perfect... all I suggest is that you clean out every last importance and attachment, make sure you have forgiven everyone, especially yourself, and BTW, it's a good idea to find out your True Nature as well. If you think ego is in control of anything, then I think it wise to stick around a little longer because you have many wondrous learning ahead.
Write me any time.
Love ya, Jed