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Mori

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Starting anew
« on: August 08, 2015, 09:46:17 pm »
Hereby the new thread I noted about earlier. Alright. So in short; There seems to be an expanding movement and an contracting movement. These continue. Meanwhile there is more confusion and chaos, but also more integration and wisdom; musclememory, once familiar, patterns form and automatic action begins to be prevalent.

So what's with the weather today? A little wavy, in the sense of moist and warm. Very unusual feeling, but very comfortable.
Oh yeah come to notice what works best for me is just feel and let it roll out.

I worked 20 hours to finish my thesis for college, first it was tiresome but eventually everything was just rolling out.

Also getting fun contact with some pretty girls. Can't say I'm displeased what maya is creating. 😊

Love, Death

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Re: Starting anew
« Reply #1 on: August 09, 2015, 06:16:19 am »
Might as well enjoy it to the max.

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #2 on: August 10, 2015, 04:45:14 pm »
Thanks Jed.
I came to notice most people are absolutely, horrendously boring, bland and superficial. When I was younger I had more sympathy for like overall people, all about peace, etc. Now I say f*ck that sh*t. Out with the useless, brainless types. I couldn't care less about them. They don't bring anymore into the world than they consume. If a world war would wipe out a large part of humanity, it wouldn't be a bad thing. Very interesting to observe I feel this throughout my entire being, whereas only a few months ago it would've been the opposite.
This seems more real and direct though.

Honestly, I think I dropped the whole enlightenment thing. Which ironically is closer to enlightenment than what I envisioned when I was younger.
I don't give a damn anymore to gain anything. Just writing this down to keep recording, to notice as I write.

As for the weather; Two cats walk down an alley, one is orange striped, with white belly, the other is black and white. There is no clue. They're just cats.

Love, Mori.

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Re: Starting anew
« Reply #3 on: August 10, 2015, 04:53:34 pm »
Addendum

A few examples of people describing themselves:
I love to sport, traveling, music, festivals, etc.
Enjoying life! A day without a smile is a day lost!

Seriously? So you're copying what everyone else is saying? No variations? Not even a bit of personality? Go ahead, try to invent a new word and give it some context while you're at it.
At the moment enjoying myself with murder fantasies.

Cheerio! Mori

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Re: Starting anew
« Reply #4 on: August 10, 2015, 10:14:36 pm »
Whatever floats you boat.

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Re: Starting anew
« Reply #5 on: August 11, 2015, 05:02:09 am »
The BS seemed to have flowed hard yesterday. And now I'm in the sun, enjoying.

As for the weather; some sun and some clouds. Sorry, can't make something entertaining at the moment.

Love, Morisaur

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Re: Starting anew
« Reply #6 on: August 11, 2015, 07:30:17 am »
Dear Mori:

What do you mean you can't make anything entertaining up??? A few posts ago you made up two cats, and now you are making 'some sun and some clouds'. Geez, your a brilliant creator and don't know it. Sheesh, I give up on you.

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Re: Starting anew
« Reply #7 on: August 12, 2015, 11:59:50 am »
Hiya Jed,

If only you could (give up on "me")

Note of the day: I don't take BS from myself and others anymore and others don't take BS from me anymore (sometimes from themselves) but this is still within the implications of the BS context.
This isn't really in a diminishing way, but just straight to the point and makes it easier to proceed further.

As for the weather: Although sunny, you can easily catch a cold. You could get grumpy if you feel sick, so if you notice yourself turning into a d*ck, do everyone a favor and remove yourself from any external over-stimulation and take it easy. :)

Love ya, Mori-sun

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« Reply #8 on: August 12, 2015, 08:22:20 pm »
Indeed. What is left if none of "us" are real. Where does this put us? What is the relation? How the hell do we keep being pushed into drama. I don't perceive any drive from the characters that stand in the field, but rather waves of BS that washes the field and then moments of clarity. Certainly not your average type of weather.

Love, Mori

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« Reply #9 on: August 12, 2015, 08:44:58 pm »
Holy... I've created everything. I've created my mother and whatever implications that has attached to "her". It's all getting blendy. Never experienced this kind of weather before.

Remember to breathe.

Love, Mori

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Re: Starting anew
« Reply #10 on: August 13, 2015, 09:27:06 am »
I always do...

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« Reply #11 on: August 15, 2015, 05:41:22 am »
So currently I notice the turbulence, but also I notice I've been building towards stability even though the actions towards it felt uncomfortable. Somehow it's all worth it. I've been dodging the facts of unity with great skill, but life is orchestrated in such a manner this dodging is of temporal nature.

I'm not going to deny the fact I feel like going crazy sometimes but then something or someone comes along to put me back on the track of sanity, stability and progress.
It's about time to stop considering myself a character, lost, not knowing what's going on. But rather part of a large container, awareness, with one vested interest: which is becoming more aware and it doesn't make any sense to hurt anyone, including myself.

There are moments of enlightenment, where the awareness becomes the focal point, and great events happen uplifting the awareness. Than the hide and seek takes place again because in such a state the duality is gone and I stop experiencing being a seperate self.
It's not that one state is better than another, I can see it's all part of the becoming aware process, it just becomes very obvious some things I held onto have to go.

The biggest BS maya still seems to throw at me is the notion of time, there being a past, future or present. There is only this awareness, calibrating what it knows, what it learns and integrating the implications of all this.
That's the further part. There is always further, but only to make everything more efficient, considering a more and more holistic view.

Love, Mori

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Re: Starting anew
« Reply #12 on: August 15, 2015, 06:24:11 am »
Keep chipping away.

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« Reply #13 on: August 15, 2015, 08:14:47 am »
Everything that I have ever become aware of had one thing in common. It happened all inside the awareness. And most of the times this character writing this stuff down had been present. However it is the intelligence that is awareness that moved this and all other characters and stories.
I could state there is no other intelligence than this awareness, every seperate little thing springs forth from this collective intelligence and always finds a way to stabalize itself with every expansion of awareness happening.
So this is where curiosity comes into play and the characters in the story don't need to worry about what happens, it just happens because that's what they are supposed to do to further expand the awareness.
Before I wasn't aware of this, now I am.
The art at this point is creating a system that is in harmony with nature, and I'm and we are all doing so step by step.
The chaos has subsided, it's a matter of cleaning up the mess. Which is a job in and of itself.

Love, Mori

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Re: Starting anew
« Reply #14 on: August 17, 2015, 02:09:38 am »
There are moments like now where it seems as if I got any control or say in what's happening, but when I take something like weed or psychedelics I experience ego dissolving and it becomes ever so apparent I never had control.
This gives some peace I guess. Am I even responsible for anything Jed?