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Jed McKenna

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Re: Stuck in no personal will
« Reply #15 on: June 13, 2017, 09:44:01 am »
Sure, I have had similar experiences up until I realize that was no me who could ever go anywhere and all 'my' struggles were a total was of time and energy.. which BTW, are also completely illusory.

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Re: Stuck in no personal will
« Reply #16 on: June 18, 2017, 05:38:47 pm »
I honestly don't know where I am anymore.  In this process or anywhere.  Sometimes it's ok, sometimes there is clutching to something that isn't there.  I was listening to a recording of a spiritual teacher (adyashanti) who said it's like trying to kick a dead cat on the side of the road so it will come back to life but he won't so you have to leave it there, and that made sense.  As F****D as that sounds I that is about where I am. 

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« Reply #17 on: June 18, 2017, 11:19:20 pm »
 :P :P :P

There is not cat, no such thing as dead and the road is just in one's imagination...  :o :o :o
 
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Re: Stuck in no personal will
« Reply #18 on: June 19, 2017, 10:13:27 am »
after reading that I just started laughing

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Re: Stuck in no personal will
« Reply #19 on: June 19, 2017, 10:18:32 am »
Yup, what else could one do, really... what else?

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Re: Stuck in no personal will
« Reply #20 on: June 19, 2017, 04:37:14 pm »
"Looking in".  so this is what is looking in, to the manifested fabric or whatever this stuff is.  it shatters everything. 

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Re: Stuck in no personal will
« Reply #21 on: June 20, 2017, 01:50:49 am »
 ;) ;) ;) ;)

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Re: Stuck in no personal will
« Reply #22 on: June 22, 2017, 06:23:26 pm »
I found myself in a strange place while out shopping, the commentary in the head stopped totally for hours, and was stopped at that time.  I felt like I died.  I can't explan this.  I've had these moments before but not like this.  It was horrifying and peaceful at the same time.  I felt it was a very strange.  I can't seem to get myself to "do" anything.  There's been a lot of sitting or doing nothing, which is against everything I know.  I've put it job applications and no one is calling me, prayer doesn't work, nothing is manifesting at all.  just nothing.  how do I get this stupid thing to move so I can provide for myself?  ****

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« Reply #23 on: June 22, 2017, 09:05:08 pm »
What do you mean ''nothing is manifesting''. Look around you.

Wanting pushes things away, essentially affirming and maintaining that you don't have and won't get what you want. I suggest extreme gratitude for the air you breath, trees, puppy dogs and children. I know that I'm beginning to sound like a country and western song, but what the heck. Try it.

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« Reply #24 on: June 22, 2017, 09:29:11 pm »
I apologize I wasn't clear enough in my writing.  Yes I do need to add gratitute, there's a lot of resentment as my life has been rough the whole way.  I guess I feel like there should be some kind of thing showing up to show me what to do, or a purpose or patterns or something.  I dont' know.  Divine guidance, something.  I get the "no doer" thing and sometimes (thats they key word) it is my experience.  then it goes back this

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Re: Stuck in no personal will
« Reply #25 on: June 27, 2017, 01:39:48 pm »
"The universal dream
For those who wish to seem
Those who wish to be
Must put aside the alienation
Get on with the fascination
The real relation
The underlying theme"

great song

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Re: Stuck in no personal will
« Reply #26 on: Today at 05:55:28 am »
You said: I guess I feel like there should be some kind of thing showing up to show me what to do, or a purpose or patterns or something.  I dont' know.  Divine guidance, something.

I am a little flummoxed with with what you said. What do you think this forum is about, the books, the series, great writers such as Ramana and Nisargadatta? There is guidance all around you but you fail to open your eyes. I mean ALL around you. I just don't get it. If you are interested in pursuing H/R and T/R then get off you high horse and quit wasting time. Do something about it, like dealing with your resentments. If you think your life has been "rough the whole way" then buy a ticket and come here, I'll show you rough!

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