Recently I had been thinking that my concept of money had been outdated. I figured I would just print resumes, spam businesses, get job, have money, survive. The objective was basically get money, the ends justify the means. "Maybe I should take money out of the equation" I said aloud to myself, assuming that there was an I to listen.
I thought about it and I figured that I should just find things people want done that I'm also good at. The next day I got an email response from an old guy who refused my application to be a dishwasher, but instead offered me a job as a personal assistant. Cool. I'll be able to do everything on my own schedule, couldn't have found a better job. Taking money out of the equation got me to avoid identifying as a poor person.
I was playing computer games and it started to become boring. "why is this boring?" I've become an objective machine at this game. I was staring at the mini-map and objectives list more than I was playing the game. "Drop the objectives." Instantly the game was fun. Just a witch doctor shooting darts. When you're not chasing an outcome it really doesn't matter when your character dies. After a little while I thought "your objective is to play like this" and there's nothing much I can do about that but laugh. Objective brain is playing a game of its own, but at least this paragraph contains some metaphors about what I've been doing that need to be looked at.
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