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DragonTree

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« Reply #30 on: June 08, 2016, 10:41:08 pm »
So this got me quite frustrated, which is good. I ended up doing a guided meditation where I just zoned out. Trying to be aware of things has strangled awareness.

Being relaxed made me look at the smaller things I've been putting aside. There's a lot of little behavioural things which I've been ignoring because I was chasing an idea about a dream. Recently I read a passage from Spiritually INcorrect where Julie mentions the huge underground mushroom...


(documenting stories to work on)
There's anxiety about my living situation. I have no money and rent will be due eventually. I'm fine with having no money for my own sake but it causes anxiety when I think of what others will think when I come up short. Surprisingly this is causing a myriad of odd anxieties such as not wanting to watch tv around roommates.

Next there's the animals. I get upset about stupid things like the dog eating cat food. I only noticed it today when I saw him trying to eat some cat food and instead of getting mad at him I handed him the dish and chuckled about it. There's still something in this area, I can tell because I get the impulse to shout at the cats when they scratch the furniture for attention.

The 3rd one is a little hazy at the moment but I need to look at the anxiety surrounding the possibility of NOT getting T/R which may be responsible for my most recent mirage chases.


Might get a little notebook to document things throughout the day in order to aid this process