This morning I was thinking about how I could rip on a religious person's belief system by getting them to question it and long story short it made me realize that I have a belief system. Its all built up around junk you'd find in jed's books and these forums. I haven't been tossing out much, if I have its only to make room for the new operating system. Needless to say all that
**** went up in a flash fire and I feel like I've been drinking poison
I want out. I'm tired of dicking around like this. Its disgusting. I thought I was becoming more thorough but I've only been carefully scanning within a set paradigm. I don't want 10 years, 2years, it needs to go now. This is filth. Why is anger always the response to catching mysefl anyway? Waste of time/energy. Except no, that's an answer from distortion. and that.
****. I'm ashamed. I just can't not distort things
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