No questions in here
Today I found another layer of activity I was hiding behind. I was straining to be in the present moment which in retrospect is retarded. I let that go, then I went through and inspected all the previous hangups I've been at which ended up becoming a meditation. After watching for however long my head started ringing and my mind remarked "into the abyss we go!" I just watched. It was an experience (of a non-experience sort) but that's not it. I was in and out like pizza in the oven and the fact that I wasn't scared of this time was unfortunately reassuring.
It seems like I could have gone deeper somehow but that's just another expectation to find a thing in a thing. <-judgement
Cutting off belief of jedmckenna books is one of the best things I've ever done. My mind drones on and if I'm watching I'll catch various different beliefs over the years that I just never let go of. If I go through content again it's only to monitor if I agree or disagree, then I can just not. I thought I had a question when I began typing but I'd rather not ask and just see for myself.
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