INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

I was killing time, turned on a movie and bam! Saw a guy in a uniform and I've had this unshakeable idea that I need to go join the military. I checked out some positions where I could be a pencilpusher or something but trashed the idea in favour of going for something like a grunt (more likely to face combat). It seems to make a lot of sense but at the same time I'm afraid of getting killed     Might have to go... march into a desert (wonder how long that idea has been cooking up).
For now I need to figure out why I'm hesitant to go, in the meantime my options are drying up forcing my hand to a certain extent. I asked for the next thing to make itself known and it did and it sucks