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DrDaring

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Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« on: August 17, 2017, 09:22:58 am »
New to the forum, but been searching for years now.

I've been using the Neti Neti process, and after seeing Jed's idea about writing that process down, I'm now achorless - which I guess is a good thing.

I've run out of things to look into.  Everything is just . . (I dislike the word nothing its not descriptive to me) . . . not important.  Absolutely everything, every thought, feeling, perception.  Its all to be discarded.  'I' can't even find myself anymore, there's no one doing the looking and nowhere to look.  The mind spirals.  Which is good.

So now there is just sitting, watching the illusionary dream go by, watching the mind flush down the toilet in spirals.  For some reason, I enjoy watching it spiral down.

I wonder what it will feel like when the gut belief of 'I' finally gives up the ghost.

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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #1 on: August 17, 2017, 09:46:39 am »
Dear Last Flush of the Toilet Bowl:

Welcome to the forum.. as for you question, wait and see.

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. Good work.

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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #2 on: August 17, 2017, 09:50:06 am »
Thanks, Jed.  I appreciate your succinct style.

Nothing more to 'do' while the spiral continues other than wait?

Huh . . I think I just answered my own question.  There really isn't anything to 'do'.  Its all just being done.

What a remarkable feeling.


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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #3 on: August 17, 2017, 09:53:32 am »
Yes, it certainly is...

Love ya, Jed

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I'm encountering some strange physical sensations.  My brain feels 'numb', as if its seized up or stopped using part of itself.  A headache like you wouldn't believe.

A loss of mental chatter, which seems to be a good thing.  A loss of meaning, which again is a good thing.  Progress, it seems.

Its like floating down a lazy river on an inner tube, just letting the current show me where its taking my experiences, and its always been like this.  I've just stopped paddling and am going along for the ride.  And the 'I' in I've is just a convenience of language - the idea of I continues, the 'reality' of I has broken down.

There's a lot of loss to this process.  This seems to be a good thing too.