No questions Jed I just want to rant about "life" stuff which I think you think is boring.
Mom wants me to see grandma. Haven't seen her in long enough to knower, I don't want to contact grandma.
The context can be altered - go and meet with an old lady. It's more attractive to do at this point but around the time I consider this..
I don't hink I've ever given a **** about family affairs but I attend anyway. Why must Impress people I never see or think about? I only see and think about them when I'm there trying to impress them only so that I don't disappoint them.
There's a funeral coming up and I don't want to go. I told mom I'd go but then this happens. As far as family is concerned I want to disappear and be untreachable. I've been to a funeral before and it sucked, why do another? we can be more creative
Its the same with friends... its starting. I find myself at the table in a bar somewhere listening to the same conversations on repeat wondering when I can leave. Its just like being a kid bored at grandmas house. The only reason I stick around and try to participate is obligations..
obligations beget obligations but they are not obligatory
ps: breathing getting better!