INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

Hey Jed,

I have been 'trying' self-inquiry since a while. I am not able to get in touch with the sense of 'I am.' When I close my eyes and ask, 'Who am I?' I am aware of some vague images of the lining of my body, some sensations, sounds... all perception. There is just perception. Not able to find an I nor the sense of I am.

Should I keep doing it the way I am doing it? Or can you point me towards a more accurate direction?

Thanks!
Sager

Now that you asked, it got clarified for me. I have been looking for an experience of 'no-self.' An experience where my body dissolves and merges with everything and I realise that I am everything and there is nothing else. A sudden explosion. A miraculous/magical experience. At lease an insight into the Truth. A grand aha moment.

I have been trying the same thing since a while; inquiring, 'Who am I?'. Not consistently though. But recently, got really serious about it. Thanks to the book Spiritual Warfare and some other factors maybe.

So, I realise that what I am looking for is not something I can imagine, perceive, think of or conceive of. And I keep on looking. And I don't find anything. The mind gets distracted. I bring it back. In a session of one hour, serious inquiry happens for maybe ten minutes.

So? Should I just keep looking and looking and looking?