Hi Jed,
thanks for your reply and I must say, it was really a good one. Short and sweet.
I read in one of the threads where you pointed out to a forum member that these POSTS are only for YOU (you were referring to the poster), which ever one you read. So I conclude they are also all for ME.
So reading the other posts it has been hitting me left and right, like getting slapped in the face.
Reading your reply there were two things that really struck me. I like how your BELIEVE SYSTEM abbreviation (B.S.) matches as an abbreviation for bull$#!t. And yes people do not like their bull$#!t (B.S.) challenged. But more profoundly was:
We create all these things through our experiences. Name something that isn't an experience and show me something that exists for you when you aren't observing it.
BAMMMMMM, seriously. That is something everyone should really contemplate.
Anyways.
I have been on my little journey and probably nothing out of the ordinary in comparison to others. Only thing I knew from an early age that something was different. Not sure what but I did not fit in, did not like what others were doing, was not interested, etc. Always struggled to FIT IN. BUT I actually did not want to. Now being older it is much clearer and yes I do not want to fit it and it don't
Anyways keeping it short, do not want to bore you with my past which is really unimportant. So here are a few things I wanted to ask you.
1. Through the years, especially the recent years I have no interest in memories and my past, it keeps fading away and I really have a hard time remembering or connecting to that person at that time. I don't remember stuff from last week.
It this a "side effect" of the process?
2. With that being said I have also lost a large amount of desires, interests etc. I have become seriously impatient, cannot deal with frivolous, superficial stuff, become irritable and peoples stupidity bugs the hell out of me. Not sure what that is but do you think it could be related? Sometimes I feel I am going nuts with all of this and then looking at the people that surround me. Crazy !!!
3. The main answer that I have to peoples questions nowadays is: I don't know or basically F#$% it! Which I in the meantime think is the best "spiritual" advise. Do your books have a tendency to start shifting things in people, or whatever you want to call it. Can or have they triggered things is people before?
Not sure if this all makes sense but it becomes more and more difficult for me to explain.
Thanks.
Sven