Getting sane in a insane world? I've stopped trying to judge or evaluate the outside world. Cannot change it, why waste time? Those who try to change it are crucified, and all Heroes and Moral examples are all dead.
In this world and age only those with money can do what they want, and those without it abide by the rules of those who have it.
What I am seeing? I do not know who I am.
What is truth realization? Or Enlightnment? Or self-awareness?
Still no clue, no matter the time i spend reading about it or listening to it.(Jed Mckenna audio Books, adyashanti, Eckhart Tolle,Bhagvad gita as it is, Budha at the gas pump "interviews", so on)
I cannot possibly know what the I/eye is seeing.
Have no idea. Just mere assumptions of "knowing " people, because I've met them and interacted with them for several years. "Friends", "Family", "work" cannot even find the strength or a reason to keep doing what i do everyday. I just do it because i cannot find any other way to earn money honestly to pay my bills, but honest people never prosper, and so i feel like trapped to everything that is the outside.
It all seems the same, and yet nothing comes to mind.
What i really want? To be able, like bill gates or warren buffet to have enough money so i don't have to worry about having to wake up everyday to go to a job where im under payed and unappreciated.
No money to invest, no idea where to invest it, no money for college, so i just do the best i can, without any will to do it. What is will anyway?
**** Will and
**** Logic.
I shouldbe called Humoney, not Human or Pereira.
We kill ourselves daily, doing what we don't like, because we need to make money to pay for things we don't really need, and save so that when we retire we can enjoy life.
But some of us do not even reach retirement.