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Jed McKenna

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« Reply #45 on: June 17, 2017, 02:11:36 pm »
That's rather obvious..

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« Reply #46 on: June 21, 2017, 09:57:40 am »
To "me" or to maya,
I've come to realize that you have infinite resources at your disposal. You can make "me" tired, exhausted, suddenly lose all my appetite(and therefore worried about that), feeling guilty and righteous and embarrassed and pleased and angry and uncertain about everything. It is pretty cool actually, I can be "angry" for being "embarrassed" and be "guilty" for being "angry" and this can go on forever - inception-style.

And that is ok. Keep doing what you are doing and I mean it.

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« Reply #47 on: June 21, 2017, 10:31:40 am »
I'm pretty sure I will but have no say in the matter.

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« Reply #48 on: June 24, 2017, 10:19:09 am »
What if I look into my soul, my (assumed) very being, and find nothing?

Something that pops into my head just now.

Maybe it's my deep fear...

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« Reply #49 on: June 26, 2017, 06:56:50 am »
Maybe.... find out who thinks they are experiencing that fear.

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« Reply #50 on: June 26, 2017, 10:04:50 am »
I think my world just broke apart. To put in simple words, I came to see that all this time I've been trying to "fix" various different things in my life, and there's this underlying assumption of a life of perfect harmony that can be achieved. Play the Perfect Harmony to the largest degree -- a world of no hunger, war, poverty, disease, death, not any cause of emotional distress or drama, not even the need to work for survival. It would be an...unimaginably horrible one. Wake up, then what? Stare at the ceiling, watch tv, watch characters experience things cannot even relate to, because imperfection isn't an option. Hurt isn't an option. Want to kill myself because it's just so boring? Death isn't an option either.

This is mindblowing enough for me alone, because it implies...all my past "trauma", all of what I think is wrong of me is just...nothing.

But here's part 2: maybe being bored enough, one can watch tv with such enthusiasm that they become the characters in the show...able to experience imperfection.

Whoa.  :o :o

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« Reply #51 on: June 27, 2017, 06:13:04 am »
One day later: I feel particularly profound  ::) and I await your approval (stole from one of your rants, seems to apply)

So...further

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« Reply #52 on: Today at 05:59:44 am »
Yes my child... you have been approved of and are unconditionally loved, indeed you are that love itself.... now GET BACK TO WORK. ... further.

Cheers, Jed.