Something happened these days - my grandfather is diagnosed with stomach cancer stage 4. I'm relatively young, my parents had me early, he is only in his mid 70s. He raised me for a large part of my childhood and is a very gentle, loving, conflict-avoiding man.
I know none of what I wrote is really true and this is kind of attention seeking, but this has been on my mind for a while now and better to let it out. Maybe I'll write more, maybe I will not.