Jed. I need some help. I have not yet killed all the dark creatures within. There are still many, as evidenced by these feelings of regret that surface. One target is the idea, for example, that I need to be a good father (and all the made up definitions thereto). I understand this idea came from without. I understand that it has no reality - laughably meaningless. Yet, the idea can still be used to manipulate me. I know it is there. I have isolated it. I can’t figure out how to destroy it. I have done good work with a lot of these usurpers I think. This is one of the biggest and darkest. Maybe that’s why I can’t see what to do next. I am afraid to uproot it I think. I’ll keep writing but any guidance would be appreciated.
Thank you.