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Hello, Jed!

So I've been tangled in happiness/sadness all my life and began to wonder if this is in fact the only way for a human to live. So far, following the SA, it goes like this: the only reference point I can think of... Oh, wait, there is none. Thoughts going after thoughts in patterns and loops. As far as I'm concerned, my emotions are by-products of my habits & thoghts. Emotions drag memories along because vice versa. And how can I possibly be out of this circle? I can't even contemplate how this could be faisible because all I can do is go in circles: even my writing it is a part of the usual trajectory.

So is this just a matter of getting so mad, that it's not physically possible to dream? Cause I can't imagine how else.

Thanks,
RD

I'm not sure if I get you right, but if you mean "to be in an angry/frustrated state while trying to stay aware and out of it", this makes sense. However, I wouldn't bombard my ego on purpose, because I may have overcome my whimpiness some time ago, but I still get occasional relapses, and if that happens, I just get more stupid conversations in my head, as to "who's to blame" or "how to get out of here". Although, by writing that I've just admitted that I'm still addicted to my - prone to depression - self. So, another question, if I may: does it make sense that it is better to be in a bad "dream" than in a "good" one in terms of waking up? Or is it just some form of masochism I invented a good name for?

God bless,
RD

Hey Jed!

I've been reading the old topic on forum rules where you wrote this: "The discipline I espouse is counter to what some of you might want, but T/R is highly unlikely to show up in your world if you don't exhibit some discipline."

So basically I took it as if you have some set of recommendations that can be helpful. So what kind of discipline are we talking about? Could you elaborate, please?

PS (or BS?) I used to be a by-the-book person who loved hiding behind the rules/regulations, but that didn't get me anywhere. Mainly because I didn't have a real goal. Hm... Looks like I still don't, except self-inquiry.

Cheers,
RD