To what these thoughts/emotions/senses/stories are happening? any answer or attempt at answering is just another thought/emotion/story. how can I answer this with something else? (cheat: there is no one who can answer, just the same thoughts over and over again)
Is awareness just another thought/story? because for example when I'm aware of my thoughts, I never perceive thoughts directly, I just perceive a thought about the original thought. or when I'm aware of my emotions It just happens as a thought (oh anger, oh this emotion or that emotion or just an emotion is here) I can even stop labling perceptions at times but still I know that I'm aware through a confirmation by thought. or there is only a memory telling me that I was aware. and I can't trust a memory. (silly?
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