Thanks Jed,
Yes this strategy of creating guilt for myself has been working somehow to get me to sit down and do some focused work every day or so. but I'm not sure if I'm progressing towards "It" or just fooling myself. I still have periods where I get lost in the dream and think I'm this body (like now as this back pain is making me suffer and sends me after solutions - overall I still somehow chase good feelings and sensation and avoid bad ones)
What do I want?, I just want to stop fooling myself, stop giving in to distractions and never bother about this world ever again.
But overall I have this feeling that this way of sticking to my commitments to myself and doing set periods focused work is the best way forward Jed, although you've said many times that I don't need to do anything and I don't have any doubt in that. 0% doubt I'm already TR. but still this is the ego typing here, I think I'm the ego so obviously the ego wants TR and doesn't want to accept that there is nothing to do, because what that would mean? the end of it. but has it ever been to start with? so yeah as Long as I think I'm the ego and believe that the ego (I) exist I need to work.
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