Why are we seeking TR here? after all truth is always there, can't be improved by anything, won't be affected by anything, no matter what kind of show is going on in it, and no matter if I'm taking it seriously, identifying with it, suffering in it, believing it, misunderstand it etc. etc, my death won't affect truth as well (isn't that just another appearance?)
Isn't the search for truth just another mind strategy to improve the dream ? (perhaps its last resort for self-improvement and feeling better), therefore just another selfish pursuit as anything else (and perhaps the most selfish one)
of course there is no reason for anything, its just another appearance that I'm seeking truth. if this is true then my search for truth should have no effect on my realization of it (no cause and effect) and its just as in vein as anything else.
I remember I heard U.G. Krishnamurti somewhere said that "there is a higher chance for a rapist, a murderer or a criminal to realize truth than all those spiritual aspirants". makes sense now.
sorry if I'm saying utter b.s.