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Vivien

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« on: June 01, 2017, 10:12:18 am »
Dear Jed,
I have done some practices for couples of years, and I am really tired of it because I can't see any progresses. But I notice that whenever I come across something I don't want to face in life, I go back to do those practices desperately. Those things I don't want to accept and face urge me to keep doing all the practices. It's like a cycling keeps going round and round and round. Do I try to escape from the reality by searching for truth? Is truth something I use to protect my ego?

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« Reply #1 on: June 02, 2017, 03:32:25 am »
Hi Vivian:

Thanks for your post and welcome to the forum.

You are doing what almost all seekers do, you seek T/R in order to find some kind of relief and then use the reduction of stress as a measure of your progress. It can be if you know what you are doing, however, trying to 'use' T/R to achieve something. I suggest that you pursue it because it is, in my experience, why you are here... no other reason is required.

BUT... what you really want is not T/R, you want to become and adult. If you sense that is accurate, let me know. Also, let me know what is holding you back.

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. Don't expect me to believe you.

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« Reply #2 on: June 04, 2017, 03:58:47 am »
Hi, Jed,
I want to be free from all the worries, fear,  anxiety, should and shouldn't, the sense of uncertainty, insecurity and worthlessness. Is it how an adult is? If yes, then it is what I want. I am not sure if it's all the emotion I mentioned above hold me back. I have a believe that if I live without them I would be destroyed, used or hurt by others.

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« Reply #3 on: June 04, 2017, 06:38:18 am »
 Hi Vivien:

If you have a believe that if you live without them you would be destroyed, used or hurt by others, then you would be nuts to let them go. Yes, that freedom is definitely adultish, but you are not ready for that yet.

So, don't worry about it, just do what arises next.

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #4 on: June 18, 2017, 12:45:26 pm »
Hi, Jed
You ever mentioned the context of humans' life. How does one know what his context is? And can it be changed? Or is it like something destined?

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« Reply #5 on: June 18, 2017, 11:00:21 pm »
The ''context'' is the contain of all that appears to arise. There is no one to change it because you, as you think you are, do not exist.

Love ya, Jed.