INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

Since my last posting, I've spent a fair amount of time just experiencing that underlying field of awareness, so to speak.  Its moved to being quite obvious in everything I experience, quite 'normal' if you will.

This morning, the experience seems to be pumped up quite a bit.  Everything is a bit 'sharper' - colours are brighter, sounds are crisper, even tastes feel more alive or detailed.  But the most jarring experience is, for lack of a better term, seeing the framerate of reality.  Its as if everything flickers on an off at a very, very fast pace, something I'm just at the edge of being able to detect.

Is this normal, part of the process?  I just want to make sure I'm not on a tangent and need to refocus.

Thanks for all your guidance, Jed.

Thanks for the reminder to focus on the Awareness/perceiving aspect of experience, and not what is being perceived.  Its easy to fall back into that pattern, isn't it?

After a long session of hacking away at what is me and what isn't, I've come to the conclusion that I'm that Awareness that perceives everything.

And that's all.  Everything else is what is being experienced.  Its 'not me'.  It has no substance, no reality unto itself.  Its just experience.  Outside of awareness, nothing exists.  No one exists.  Its just me, experiencing experience.

That's simultaneously a chilling and peaceful realization.

Thanks, Jed.  When being with it, are you referring to a formal meditation practice, or just allowing it to be part of my normal, every day experience without making it into anything 'special'?

Life has become very energetic lately.  Just sitting as the Awareness brings an immense pulsing of life-force from the base of my spine, shining upwards like a firehose out the top of my head.  Its a very pleasant experience, and has been continuous for the last week or so.

As usual, I note it as an experience, let it do whatever its doing, and just be aware of it.  If it ends, it ends.  If it intensifies, it intensifies. 

I'll just keep going.

My profound guru b.s. suggestion.... stop flapping your gums and just do it!

Said lovingly of course.

By Jed.

I'm becoming very aware that the physical world is made of vibration, and that the vibration becomes more or less dense depending on where I , as Awareness, set my attention.  All the senses are 'made up' of this vibration.  Thoughts also fall into this realm, where they are just vibrations that I can tune into, or ignore.

I don't have a physical body, I just conceive that I do.  What I am is the experiencing part of that field of Awareness, that sits behind everything.

Experiencing.  That's all I appear to be doing now.

Lol.  This is quite the experience

I'm going to have to relearn everything I've ever conceptualized in what I've called 'the world'.

This should be fun!  I have such a desire to replunge into the world with this new realization.

I never thought it would be like this.  Actually, I had no idea what it would be like.

It truly is very much like 'waking up'.