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DrDaring

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Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« on: August 17, 2017, 09:22:58 am »
New to the forum, but been searching for years now.

I've been using the Neti Neti process, and after seeing Jed's idea about writing that process down, I'm now achorless - which I guess is a good thing.

I've run out of things to look into.  Everything is just . . (I dislike the word nothing its not descriptive to me) . . . not important.  Absolutely everything, every thought, feeling, perception.  Its all to be discarded.  'I' can't even find myself anymore, there's no one doing the looking and nowhere to look.  The mind spirals.  Which is good.

So now there is just sitting, watching the illusionary dream go by, watching the mind flush down the toilet in spirals.  For some reason, I enjoy watching it spiral down.

I wonder what it will feel like when the gut belief of 'I' finally gives up the ghost.

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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #1 on: August 17, 2017, 09:46:39 am »
Dear Last Flush of the Toilet Bowl:

Welcome to the forum.. as for you question, wait and see.

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. Good work.

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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #2 on: August 17, 2017, 09:50:06 am »
Thanks, Jed.  I appreciate your succinct style.

Nothing more to 'do' while the spiral continues other than wait?

Huh . . I think I just answered my own question.  There really isn't anything to 'do'.  Its all just being done.

What a remarkable feeling.


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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #3 on: August 17, 2017, 09:53:32 am »
Yes, it certainly is...

Love ya, Jed

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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #4 on: August 18, 2017, 08:14:43 am »
I'm encountering some strange physical sensations.  My brain feels 'numb', as if its seized up or stopped using part of itself.  A headache like you wouldn't believe.

A loss of mental chatter, which seems to be a good thing.  A loss of meaning, which again is a good thing.  Progress, it seems.

Its like floating down a lazy river on an inner tube, just letting the current show me where its taking my experiences, and its always been like this.  I've just stopped paddling and am going along for the ride.  And the 'I' in I've is just a convenience of language - the idea of I continues, the 'reality' of I has broken down.

There's a lot of loss to this process.  This seems to be a good thing too.

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« Reply #5 on: August 19, 2017, 09:27:44 am »
Loss of that which was never real, primarily stories... who misses those...  ??? ??? ???

Love ya, Jed

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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #6 on: October 19, 2017, 09:57:16 am »
There has now been the experience of emptiness, emptiness in myself, and immediately afterwards, the recognition that everyone else is empty too - just a bundle of thoughts and emotions working by themselves, without a doer doing anything.  Yet, everything just continues running.

With that drops out the 'me' thoughts.   Its interesting watching the thoughts now talk to themselves, without me being involved.  Incredibly disorienting, yet simultaneously relaxing.  And there's not much to do anymore, doing just happens.  And everything is fine.

Is there more to the experience to come, once this realization has settled in?

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« Reply #7 on: October 19, 2017, 10:47:06 am »
Wait and see... remain as open as possibly, infinity is quite large.

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #8 on: October 19, 2017, 10:49:24 am »
"Wait and see... remain as open as possibly, infinity is quite large."

This sits comfortably with me.  Its as if I've been running on a treadmill for 50 years, and now just noticed it.  I can step off, watch the treadmill continue to go around its own, and just experience it without having to do anything - the experience will come when it comes.

Time to rest.
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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #9 on: October 19, 2017, 11:08:14 pm »
That's wisdom...

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #10 on: October 20, 2017, 05:56:59 am »
Thanks for being a mirror, Jed.

All the best.

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« Reply #11 on: October 20, 2017, 11:30:16 pm »
Cheers... now further....



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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #12 on: October 21, 2017, 03:11:06 pm »
Always further.

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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #13 on: October 31, 2017, 08:57:38 am »
The world is now 'dissolving'.  There is an awareness of the sub-stratum that makes up reality.  I'm grasping for words here, but I think you'll be able to translate.

Each sense, or what we think of as senses, is actually just one sense - Awareness.  That Awareness has a perceived existence that it experiences through subtle, continuously shifting, vibrations.  Its like a visual snow, an audio static, a tactile tingling, that sits behind, and actually makes up reality.  It just 'faded in' to my recognition this morning. 

What an amazing experience.

As usual, always further . . .
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Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Reply #14 on: November 01, 2017, 02:43:54 am »
Good work...  ;) ;) ;) ;)

Love ya, Jed.