Author Topic: What's further  (Read 766 times)

El.H.

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Re: What's further
« Reply #15 on: August 12, 2017, 12:28:07 pm »
Yesterday was quite a calm day; I couldn’t find my small private pool of fear (I’d prefer it to be small). But I got the access now. Lots of links lead to one place – twisted nothingness. And all I was doing all my life is trying to overcome it using different ways. Now I have all those links alive. Do I have to cut them off, to pay certain attention? I guess yes, hate that.

I didn’t want people to reflect my nothingness back to me, so it became twisted, secret, extremely wrong, other people (imagined people=I) were not allowed to know or to see it. I wasn’t allowed. I was forbidden by me. Twisted.

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Hey!  Your words about the Truth and Infinite Context were not just beautiful and comforting. What’s the point to comfort someone? That was a pointer, silly me, took me 2 days). But why do you use capital letters? From my prospective it’s more like nothing, I cannot pay attention to “it”, I cannot think of ‘it”. Of course I’m in the middle of the process and can’t see clearly. My guess is because it is the only “thing” that exists, theoretically speaking.. Words about the Truth are always confusing me. And I know why: I think this I is a real me. That’s why I couldn’t accept it and had to reverse. It would lead to the greatest contradiction of all. But is it for me to decide? No. O, my…
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