I'm back. If I go back to being uncomfortable, confused, trying to know something, figure it out, now, no, just wait, look, not true, nothing there, just Maya.
Incredible energy now. Jogging again, not to look good, what do I care. I'm jogging farther and farther, feels like nothing, I'm 52 and it's hot 90's, I can't even feel it. I'm amazed and crazed with it. It's like a burning. Sleeping less, 3 hours and a nap, not tired, I can sleep when I'm dead. So much to do, I have to see through it all. I can't stop, it's like an avalanche.
Music, everything is in the music.
I'm at work and it dawns on me. I'm the only one here. There are bodies, potential, if no one is here, the self vacant, non existent, than how am I here? Unless I'm not.
I said to my players "What if what you think is going on isn't really anything like what is really going on?" One guy said, "You lost me there. I have no idea what that means." I said, "Yeah, I know, that's what I mean but don't worry about it." Getting very funny now.