So I've been thinking lately about what happened to me, after I went to that meditation 10 years ago now and how I was during the two weeks afterwards and what I experienced then and how I now know that for whatever reason, my false self had vanished into thin air. That's why I had no reaction to anything and I simply could not be threatened. I mean who could be threatened if no one existed? I also remember feeling a sense of awe, like I would go outside and just stare at the sky. I also remember having to take a lot of deep breaths. I don't remember having any kind of agenda at all, like I was completely open to anything that happened, there was no good or bad and I was in a situation that would be viewed from current standards as abusive and yet I saw that nothing could be harmed. I also somehow knew that people were acting and saying whatever it was they were doing because they thought they were real.
So lately, I've remembering it a lot and I see that I can't deny that it happened the way it happened not that I've ever tried to. Of course, I've talked about it with a few other people over the years none of whom had the faintest idea of what I was talking about. And now I've found you and this forum. And the thought comes up again and again, that I've seen what it is. I mean I can't pretend it didn't happen, not that I'd want to, but I saw it with my own eyes so I know what I know and I can't un-know what I know. I can't un-know that the self that I walk around being all day long doesn't actually exist.
If during my day, I say or even think something that is coming from the non existent false self I immediately know it. But my question to you is do you think that there might be something like consensual reality? Do you think if you put a person in a room full of completely awake beings that they might wake up too? Because whenever I read something you write to me, it seems to remind me of what's really going on here like I'm that thing that I was (or wasn't is probably more accurate) during those two weeks.
P.S. Sorry for the long reply. Are my replies supposed to be limited to 200 words too or just the original post?
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