INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

And I am starting to act differently because of everything I know.  So where I was basically a servant to their every whim, now I'm just not too worried about going a different way if you know what I mean?  They want to attack me when things don't go their way and I' am here but not.  Who can they attack?  I don't seem to understand except that I remember but you should know I am fading away.  I look around and I just look at stuff and it's all just amusing to me.  I'm happy beyond belief.  I'm not worried about much.  Yeah, much?  No nothing. 

Oh Wow!

That's all.

I can't seem to get with the words right now except to say that raspberries are amazing and I could eat them at every meal or as the meal.

But you know, who cares?

Love ya,
Sandra

What choice do we have?

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Is there any part of us that can write their own story even if that’s just another story?  Or does fully recognizing that it is all just a story and therefore not being the story but observing the story make for a more comfortable time?  Other than not be affected by it already makes it more pleasant?

Oh my God, Oh God, Holy Sh*t, really?  What the?  I almost can't believe it.  Is it?  Damn!!!
This is so over the top, What a farce?  A great big hoax?  Oh my God.  No wonder it never made any sense.  It was never intended to make any sense?  Whoa, this is a freaking trip! 

I have to say I'm a little nervous.  I don't know why, the other way is some screwed up sh*t, it's like how much time has actually passed, no, nothing.  But why, just to experience something?  Looks like the whole thing got a little out of hand, except that it's not actually here?  Not really happening?  Yeah, feels a little scary.

Your response will be greatly appreciated.

So what's the point?  Nothing?  Just being?  Just sit back and watch what is appearing for no other reason than to watch what's appearing?  Like all this time I was on a raft trying to paddle it upstream, never going anywhere, wearing myself out with worry and expectations and goals and fantasies and nightmares (mostly nightmares) and now I just let go and let the current take me where ever it wants to go?

It seems like this but a great sense of peace comes over me when I contemplate the futility of the situation.

I would say the hardest part of it all for me is destroying the concept of good and bad and the persistent idea that something, anything, should be, should appear differently than it does.  And the paradox is that in those moments of suffering and confusion, the realization that the whole thing is designed "to wake you up."