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Jed McKenna

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #165 on: November 25, 2017, 12:44:18 am »
Yes, they always point back to source, you.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #166 on: November 25, 2017, 02:43:15 pm »
My mind will stop at nothing to get me to turn back, nothing is to low for it, that is how great it’s fear is of being destroyed. But I say further, I can not be destroyed. 

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #167 on: November 25, 2017, 06:58:17 pm »
The more you realize you mind's trap the more you will come to appreciate it's hold and perhaps be even more motivated to go further.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #168 on: November 26, 2017, 12:28:01 am »
How do I go further? Any suggestions will be greatly appreciated and followed desperately.  Please advise.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #169 on: November 26, 2017, 06:26:54 pm »
If you are really serious then join the Series.

Otherwise, just be patient, relax, and breathe... and you might just tell yourself all that time.. "This is just a dream''. That sorta counters everyone and everything telling you ''THIS IS REAL!''.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #170 on: November 29, 2017, 05:26:44 pm »
I would already be in the Series if Maya wasn't messing with my flow of money.  Well, she goes where it hurts the most I'd say, wherever she can get my attention and fill me with fear.  My biggest attachment is to my children and money and the children are connected of course. 

Anything you can say about that?  Since my money isn't just set at a salary, any amount can appear at any time or not.  The best I can figure so far is just to not give a sh8t one way or the other. 

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #171 on: November 30, 2017, 01:24:37 am »
Take care of your children and your familial obligations first. As for money, you will find more comes the less you care about it.

Of course that's counter-intuitive but most Truthish things are.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #172 on: December 05, 2017, 06:02:45 pm »
I would say I only care about money to the extent that I can give it to my children.  I had to explore whether that was because I wanted them to think I'm the best or something, and that was always my motivation in the past but I'm letting go more and more now.  Now I just want to make their dream as pleasing as possible.  I have the notion that even when they are grown-up, I will continue to work and give any money I have to them after my basic needs are met since I don't need it anymore for anything else.  Money doesn't buy happiness in or out of the dream but they'll have to figure that out for themselves.  Maybe happiness can only be had by making others happy and that's why I thought of that, how selfish of me. 

If I do the Series it will be hard for me to spend that kind of money on myself but my motivation is that I could hardly guide my own children without actually knowing what is really going on.  My other motivation is more selfish and that is that I would like to AVOID ever being reborn into this ignorant state ever again. 

It occurred to me yesterday that I have very few memories from my own childhood, even my whole life, so much of what happens on a day to day basis is just completely wiped out.  In a few months, I won't remember the contents of this very email.  Well, I was thinking about how vaguely unimportant almost everything really is. 

Is anything important?  Important to who?  Maybe that's just it.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #173 on: December 05, 2017, 09:52:29 pm »
Can you imagine something being important when there is not ''I, me, my or mine'' for it to be important to?

That goes to show how unimportant importances are, but that doesn't stop them from being pretty sticky at times.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #174 on: December 09, 2017, 07:24:28 pm »
Very, very sticky, worse than superglue on the eyelids.  The only thing that brings any relief at all is when I can come to a place where I'm convinced without a doubt that it (my life or whatever is happening) is not real.  Why don't I just be completely convinced already then?  Things seem to be become really pleasant when I am.  I've seen the evidence, how much evidence do I need?  This is what I ask myself so much.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #175 on: December 10, 2017, 09:13:00 am »
Just stop thinking about it.. and you will have it.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #176 on: December 10, 2017, 08:57:52 pm »
When I read your last reply, something clicked, and I realized that I could easily see that it wasn't real and that the others didn't know that they weren't real but I forgot one thing, one very important detail was missing.  "I" the one thinking about all these things isn't real either.  So all the thinking, and all the feelings that all that thinking created...well I wanted to knock myself over the head.  Whew, thank god.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #177 on: December 11, 2017, 01:36:55 am »
Excellent, and a big relief.

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #178 on: December 26, 2017, 03:38:14 am »
About a month and a half left and then I can start the Series.  Just hanging on until then, things feel very up and down, in and out, forget and remember, feelings from stupid thoughts suck, always coming and then going, up and down, day in and day out.  I need to learn how to breathe.  That is a thought I just had.  Sleep is also very unpredictable just like the whole thing.  I just can't know.  I should probably get used to that one and just watch it. 

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Re: When it feels real but you know it isn't.
« Reply #179 on: December 29, 2017, 01:20:04 pm »
Who can I talk to and about what?  I can’t talk about the future because there isn’t one.  I can’t talk about the past because it never happened and truly pointless.  I can’t talk about this stuff because no one else knows about it and they’d just say I’m crazy.  Nobody is really here anyway, everyone is just a jumble of chaotic thoughts.  I don’t even believe most of my own thoughts. I just feel very empty.  And alone and I know that this is just another story which isn’t true.  So what do I do, tell myself any stories I like better?  I honestly think I might try that, my old stories are trash anyway and I should at least attempt to amuse myself.