Thank you for sharing an interesting perspective. Much of what you express is concurrent with my experiences...
Yes, my perspective is beyond the ''imaginative capabilities of the mind'' and THAT is my whole purpose and point. Give up mind, give up imagination... and just be with what appears... and all the time, be aware that it's all an amazing dream.. nothing more or less.
From one perspective, that is madness, but from another, it's the only kind of sanity that exists. The choice is (perhaps) yours.
Don't give up, your persistence will be rewarded some day.
Love ya, Jed.