INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

If you think this post is too long, then please just read part 2.

Part 1:

I'm still doing autolysis. What has changed:

- Yesterday I felt like I lost the hability of "loving" things(you know, that good feeling that happens in your chest); today I woke up with it again.

- Yesterday I went for a long time without sleeping.

- I have the memory of feeling something akin to "ethernal" or "divine" when waking up; the memory of it is very weak though. I also feel disgusted about the fact that I felt "holyness" because I hate such thing - It's just a mental feeling created by this simian body when it is in front of something greater.

- Synchonocities.

- I still hate people/society. The hate and apathy has just increased: before, when someone told me they were sick or told me an sad story, I would desire good things for them mentally; now, I don't care. Yesterday someone that I'm supposed to care about became sick and went to the hospital; I was honest with myself and thought it wouldn't matter if he/she also died; I didn't care.

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Part 2:

So, anyways, Nisargadatta said when asked "Q: If time and space are mere illusions and you are beyond, please tell me what is the weather in New York. Is it hot or raining there?" :


"N: How can I tell you? Such things need special training. Or, just travelling to New York. I may be quite certain that I am beyond time and space, and yet unable to locate myself at will at some point of time and space. I am not interested enough; I see no purpose in undergoing a special Yogic training. I have just heard of New York. To me it is a word. Why should I know more than the word conveys? Every atom may be a universe, as complex as ours. Must I know them all? I can -- if I train"

I am not interested in reaching H/A so that I can somehow become more attractive to people due to reduced ego or whatever. I am not interested, at least now, In receiving love from other monkeys; I don't want to become Wayne Dyer 2.0. Since the start I've been on this for "hedonistic" gains; I want to have as much money as I want without doing anything, because I hate other humans and I am allergic to anything that envolves group working, licking balls of people higher in the working hierarchy, developing a network of conections, etc. I also am not altruistic. Not being able to do those things, It's pretty hard for me to succeed in life in the "normal way".

I have been reading about those Indian guys that were able to materialize gold and diamonds out of thin air... According to your experiences, are such superpowers possible(considering the right amount of training)?